healing

I had hoped I would never be sharing this story… that this story would never be mine, but it is. Three weeks ago we started to share the news with our family and friends that we were expecting. After 15 months of infertility with month after month of disappointment and testing I was finally pregnant and we were overjoyed. The days that followed were euphoric, they were a dream. The moment I told my husband that he was finally going to be a father was a moment that I’ll cherish always. Sadly, my HCG levels started to drop and inevitably my pregnancy ended in an early miscarriage. I was heartbroken, and angry… so angry. I knew that miscarriages were common, in fact 1 out of 3 first pregnancies end in miscarriage. Even knowing that I didn’t think it would happen to us… after all, it took 15 months for the right little egg to make it’s way into my world so why would I possibly have a miscarriage? But, my rationalization was wrong and that little egg just wasn’t the little egg meant to fill our hearts.

I wanted to share my story because even having the support of my husband and loved ones I still find myself feeling lonely in this struggle. Most days I feel positive and hopeful but there are days still where I’m angry that I’m back in the trying to conceive world and angry that we’ve not only struggled with infertility but also the heartbreak of a miscarriage. 

Please know, you are not alone.

Personally, I’ve found peace in knowing that we CAN get pregnant… after 15 months of the constant fear that we couldn’t, this little seed gave me hope. I still feel that fear creep up sometimes that this pregnancy was a fluke but I force those thoughts back down and just remind myself that this is a positive sign. 

Over the past two weeks I’ve tried to stay as relaxed as I can, admiring Mother Nature daily, eating healthy and studying herbalism to keep my mind off the hurt. 

I’m hoping to continue to share the story of my journey more on here but I do post daily on my Instagram page so feel free to follow me there @barefootandcrunchy 

If you have any questions leave them below! 

Much love.

xoxo

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Moody skies

The view from our living room looks out over the beautiful valley. We are up on a small mountain, surrounded by other mountains and the majority of the valley we see is beautiful farm lands. 

This view was one of the biggest selling features when we purchased our home, and after 4 years it still hasn’t gotten old. Each day the view is different, and one days like today every minute the view is different. Here on the West coast Spring is right on our heels. She is so close you can feel her in the budding trees, the blossoming cherry blossoms, the frogs at night and the birds by day… and this evening we had our first Spring feature from our living room. Every year when Spring rolls around, Mother Nature puts on the most beautiful shows. 

Tonight I poured myself a locally brewed craft beer that the hubby and I bottled this past weekend, and I was walking past the window when I saw the colours over the valley. I was mezmorized. Next thing I know, 20 minutes has passed and hubby finds me seated by the front window glued to the natural display outside. We watched big grey clouds pass over our home out into the valley that just moments before held blue skies. As the grey clouds passed over, tiny hail pebbles made the most curious of sounds bouncing off our gutters and shingles and as quickly as it came, it was over and the clouds had shuffled through the valley to be replaced by fluffier, grey clouds. Just as the sun began to set casting this beautiful golden glow down through the valley the skies opened up with rain and the combination of sweet colours, and Mother Nature’s skies cast the entire valley into a warm, comforting spring glow. 

I knew there had to be a rainbow nearby, and sure enough it appeared… full and vibrant, and then in a moment it had all passed. the sun had dipped beyond the horizon and the valley once glowing was cast into a subtle blue hue, the freshly powdered mountain tops only momentarily noticeable before grey clouds rolled in once again and the lights from the valley started to twinkle. 

I’ve always been fascinated with Mother Earth, with the weather, the moon, the stars… My Mother always said I had this awe, this curiosity, this abundance of love for nature and this deep desire to understand it. 

It hasn’t been until recently that I’ve allowed that awe to guide me. I’ve begun to understand that abundance that Mother Earth has provided and I’ve given in to allowing myself to feel as abundantly as I do about the earth, the moon, the stars and to be amazed by the beautiful depths of nature without being embarrassed by how exciting I find it. 

So tonight, as I watched the skies tell their story I thought it was time to tell mine and how this bond with the earth is growing. 

 

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Overnight Oats Recipe

I love working in the aviation industry. It’s a 24/7, 365 days a year industry and every day is different. What isn’t easy is the 3:00 am wake up to get ready for a morning shift. One of the most important things to remember is to take care of your health, especially when you’re working such an early morning. 

To avoid waking up even earlier than I have to I make sure to pack my breakfast the night before and my biggest go-to is overnight oats! I thought I would share my “base” for overnight oats. I always have frozen berries on-hand so my go to is raspberries and blueberries for fruit but you can add so many different options… raspberry almond, peanut butter and jelly, chocolate and peanut butter, banana nut.. the options are endless! 

So, this is the base recipe for my overnight oats!

1 tbsp organic chia seeds

1/3 cup organic quick oats

1/3 cup plain greek yogurt

1/2 tbsp pure maple syrup or raw honey

1/3 cup organic milk or almond milk

1-2 drops orange essential oil

layer into a mason jar, and shake

top with frozen berries and put into refrigerator overnight. Give a good stir and eat!

Enjoy!!!!

 

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DIY Rosemary, Lavender + Honey Shampoo

My hair loves a good baking soda wash. My hair tends to grow thicker, and longer and it brings out my natural curls in such a good way but – I finally went and had a hair cut, the first in over a year and I realized my scalp was feeling a little dry so I did a little research and came up with this DIY shampoo that still has baking soda in it, but also is a little more moisturizing! Even with a baking soda wash I always condition with an apple cider vinegar rinse so I still condition with the ACV rinse but swapped it from a squeeze bottle to a spray bottle which works so much better!

Here’s what I included in my shampoo!

Lavender castille soap: Castille soap is a vegetable soap derived from olive oil, lye and water. It’s gentle, non-toxic, and biodegradable and a fantastic alternative to traditional soap. It’s strong enough to remove product build-up and excessive dirt/oils but gentle enough so as not to strip away our natural oils.  FYI: castille soap is alkaline, meaning a high PH level which tends to open the hair cuticle releasing hair dyes quicker. So if you colour your hair I wouldn’t recommend using a castille soap. This is why using an apple cider vinegar rinse is important as it helps balance out the PH level.

lavender is considered a sort of antiseptic which will help cure an itchy, dry scalp and the restorative, healing properties of lavender oil will help prevent hair fall, and therefore help to thicken your hair.

Baking soda: baking soda is also a great alternative for washing hair. Similar to castille soap it will remove excess build up but not too strong to remove the natural oils that our hair needs.

Rosemary + Cedarwood essential oils: this oil helps stimulate the hair follicle making hair grow stronger and longer.

Raw Honey: honey is amazing for nourishing your hair. It contains vitamins, minerals and attracts moisture. I found a locally sourced raw honey from the Chilliwack River Valley Honey. 

Vitamin E: helps reduce inflammation to your scalp and repair damaged hair follicles.

RECIPE:

1/2 cup castille soap

1/4 cup boiled water, cooled

1/4 cup raw honey

1 TBSP baking soda

10 drops orange essential oil

20 drops rosemary essential oil

15 drops cedarwood essential oil

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